I am one of the people who likes to test for myself what other considered teachers are saying. I like to try different diets to see how my body feels after I eat, I like to try different spiritual practices to see which ones bring me peace. So today I went out for a walk to test one of Byron Katie’s sayings : “Life and death are equal in my experience.” Now this one was difficult for me to grasp; my family and I think most of the world don’t see these 2 as equal. I used to want to die as a child, but I don’t think it was because I loved death, but because I feared it, and wanted to die before anyone else in my family, so as not to experience the separation. I have a very strong connection to the trees and today they offered me a different perspective on death. I could see both life and death and they appeared equal. I could see how the live trees were providing a place to nest for the birds, and I could also see how the dead trees were providing food for the birds. I thought back to my grandparents who have passed away and remembered how I didn’t always listen to them when they were alive, but how I feel their influence now that their physical bodies are gone, how I do things like gardening because my grandpas enjoyed it or cooking the foods that my grandma cooked. It certainly feels that their spirit is much stronger in its silence than their actual words ever were.
PS My husband took the pictures today in a wooded area where we sometimes walk. The last picture has a pair of Carolina Wrens in it, the male on top of the log, and the female is in the crevice off to the right.
My first big experience of loss came in 1986, when my uncle was diagnosed with cancer. The talk around the house was quite depressing, and my thoughts immediately went looking for a cure. I couldn’t find a cure, so to my agony I had to resign to losing my uncle’s body three years later. I haven’t stopped looking for a cure, not by going to medical school, but by reading a lot about cancer. If I had cancer I would for sure do the Budwig diet to increase the amount of Omega-3 fatty acids, I would drink green smoothies to increase the amount of vitamins in my body in a very natural way, I would exercise, and for my spiritual well-being I would do The Work and fill out a judge-your-neighbor-sheet on the cancer.
I already eat a cereal based on the Budwig diet every morning. I will share the recipe here:
1 tbsp. flax seeds
1 tbsp. flaxseed oil
2 tbsp. quark ( or organic cottage cheese)
First, I grind the flax seeds in a coffee grinder and I pour them in a cereal bowl. Then I mix the flaxseed oil with the cottage cheese for 30 seconds in a Magic Bullet mixer. Then I add the banana to the flaxseed oil/ cottage cheese mix and blend for another minute. Then I empty this mixture on top of the ground flax seeds. I top this with blueberries.
I can find all of the ingredients at my local Wegmans.